Sits in a stupor worrying
only about wrongs, shame,
guilt.
All these powerful endeavors toward hell.
Sits in a stupor worrying
only about wrongs, shame,
guilt.
All these powerful endeavors toward hell.
I sometimes don’t know where I am going, and in the blink of an eye, my mind is somewhere else. I stand in my kitchen believing I can be a writer. I walk past my guitar believing I could be a musician. In a moment later, leaning against a counter now believing I am a fraud, writing will not happen and the guitar will collect dust. But pay attention to those last two comments. As I lambast myself a fraud, my last following phrases only speak of a negative reaction. If I tell myself those things, I am wanting them to manifest themselves. Am I trying to give myself a break, take the onus off me for not writing, not playing the guitar? My thoughts go everywhere.
Sitting alone
letting observers smile
mingle,
toss their eyes across the room.
Swallow that energy
positive waves of who are we
moments,
yet sorrowful is loss,
moments.
An avenue of thought
would a night snowfall
allow the mind
to fly with the flakes
study the altitude.
Felt like forever
to know this moment
is to fear finding
home again,
that place we might
lay our head at night.
Yet there is a certain fear
might overcome
any moment of solace
if we let it come.
Trying to find a way home
I want only my peace.
aquietwalk 1/2022