I can’t

I just can’t

Seems so trivial

this self mutilation,

yet here it is,

always on my mind,

trying to fight the anxiety

my mind is so made up,

and yet in a minute

I could change it,

I could find myself in a different place,

but what makes it so hard,

what prevents a person

from finding peace?

Do we need the turmoil first,

have to castigate ourselves

to feel ok for the moment.

What is it allows us to speak away the fears

and embrace love.